something is COMPLICATED .?

i dont know how to start ...

hhhhmmmmmmmmmmmm??

i am not a perfect boyfriend .

i cant fulfill my promises and i cant give evrything she want.

now my lola dont want me to have a relationship with my young age

pero pano ? ano gagawin ko ?

she's right kahit san angulo tignan but i dont want to hurt her .

i still dont know what to do.

di ko alam kung san ako tatakbo hihinge ng payo .

ano dapat gawin ko.

i was very disappointed with myself

i am such a big mistake in her life

i just bringing her pain.

sana di ako nagmadali ! sana di muna ko nakipagbalikan sa kanya!

auko na me masabi an parents nya sakin ! auko masira ang pangalan ko !

mahal ko siya . pero hindi ko alam kung hanggang saan ????

i was very confused right now!

SOMETHING WAS COMPLICATED and she doesnt know everything . how i should i tell her ?

or should i tell her ? or not ??